A Call to Love

2023-10-31 15:22:56 tinashouw

What will it take to discard the lie, that each of us is “other”?

The refusal to set aside the label of “other” and recognise our common humanity, will always lead to the repetition of the devastating story of war. It is incumbent on each of us to summon the courage to stand up and speak out against this ethnic cleansing and genocide, to say “no” to the unfolding story of war on our Palestinian brothers and sisters.

What is clear is the insatiable greed of land-thieves, war-mongers and businesses, profiteering from the unholy sale of arms. What is clear is the bullying done by political puppet-masters, fueled by their insatiable hunger for privilege, power and pelf. What is clear is the destruction wrought by the toxic fear that specific media corporations sew, with its manipulation of narratives to skewer peceptions and project biased stories. This is how the extinction-strings of ordinary men, women and children, of families and communities are deliberately and intentionally pulled; how a nation is targeted, so as to erase their existence from the face of the earth.

Our response, lack thereof, indifference or passivity all have consequences. While we watch from afar or near, the indictment of our deathly muteness…fires the silent bullets of our complicity. The time for fence-sitting is over.

I condemn the genocide, the war on the people of Palestine. I call for Cease Fire Now! End The War. I call for the courage of a Love Revolution! Instead of a call to arms, I summon a “Call to Love.” Not the paper thin, inconsequential, fickle love, carted out for consumerism of Valentine’s-day cards. No! I call on the highest form of Love. Powerful love that harnesses the daring and courage of social justice, equality and dignity for all. Revolutionary Love that rallies the unbreakable tie of spirit that bonds and strengthens communities. Revolutionary Love whose open heart and eyes, sees beyond, ethnicity, race and divisiveness. Revolutionary Love that knows how to mobilise our courage and willpower; how to dig deeply and hold on tightly to the fundamental sense of connection that tells us unequivocally that each one of us are worthy and enough, and have a right to dignity, to be seen, respected and accepted as part of this human family.

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Open Letter to Jennifer Ferguson

2017-11-30 12:04:40 tinashouw


Open letter to Jennifer Ferguson

Beloved sister Jenny, I have been deeply saddened by the disclosure of your rape. But I am encouraged by your brave decision to confront this painful experience with your willingness to explore and offer the process of mediation to your perpetrator as a way to healing and a means of finding closure. That this openhearted offer has been rejected speaks volumes.

You and I have journeyed for more than twenty years as friends and musical collaborators in the entertainment industry both in South Africa and abroad. Always a seeker of the truth, your political activism has played a huge role in championing this country’s liberation struggle. Your warrior spirit, artistry and ethics centered round “truth, transformational healing, human rights and justice for all are the elements that has shaped me as an artist and human being… and for this you have my deepest gratitude. This open letter to you is an affirmation of my respect and admiration for the journey of vulnerability and courage you have taken. I am here to express my support for you and the countless numbers of women, the silent ones and the ones who have lifted the veil of silence on their personal experiences of sexual abuse, knowing full well that the telling brings brutal scrutiny and disparaging judgement. Given your herstory and the sacrifices you and many others have made for this country, it is disturbing to know that there are people intent on destroying your credibility. I have chosen to speak out because remaining silent when the moral integrity of someone I love and respect is being attacked means being complicit in the act. But in spite of all this, the legacy of your work and what you stand for can and never will be destroyed because you have always navigated your personal and professional life in an ethical and authentic way. I continue to be inspired by the fact that many others see this and are rallying behind you too.

After listening to the various podcast interviews hosted by Karima Brown and Eusebius Mackaiser, reading the article by Rebecca Davis in the Daily Maverick and scanning through the negative comments on social media from both men and women in response to your disclosure, one unsettling societal demon has reared its ugly head, “slut-shaming”. It is being done to you; it was done to Khwezi and countless other women in multiple spaces across society and still this practice continues, sadly with many “sisters” joining the fray. It must come to an end.

In the court of law, a lawyer manipulates language and carefully selects words to build up or tear down a person’s moral fibre. Time has shown repeatedly with most rape cases tried in a court of law that inevitably the perpetrator’s lawyer will try to prove the woman’s culpability. It is done to apportion partial or full blame on the victim’s part for the rape and garner sympathy for the rapist, thereby surpassing the sexual predator’s responsibility for his actions. Even worse, society has taken its lead from the court of law and it has become the norm to probe the woman’s role in the act of sexual violence rather than interrogate the man’s predatory behaviour.

I have seen this happening with you. Social media’s response to your revelation has been rife with various negative speculations about your culpability. Firstly, questioning the timing of your disclosure and your readiness to speak only now. The insinuations are clear, that the lengthy time period taken by you for the processing of your abuse is seen as questionable, with a subtext intimating a hidden agenda on your part. This is where I consciously transform my dagger of rage and turn it into a fiery pen of action. What gives anyone the right to judge, what period of time is appropriate enough or not, for a woman to process her experience of violation? Each person comes to their healing differently and in their own time. Healing has no time constraints and will not be be dictated to. This is how the process of healing works.

Secondly, a direct comment about you having had a one-night stand was made. You and your ex-partner corrected this untruth. This is all good and well… but one cannot bypass the scary insinuation that the “one-night-stand” accusation carries? Are we meant to read or understand that “this perceived or real promiscuity” is a pretext for rape? The prejudice against women is alarming and the truth is we are always viewed as the guilty ones “asking for it”. These ‘fine’ examples have been used for ages as premise for sexual abuse eg. a) she was dressed provocatively b) she had a one-night-stand c) she said yes to his invitation for a drink. How can any rational person exploit these perceived biases as justification for the act of violence? And why is the investigative lens turned onto the woman and her character questioned, when it is the actions of the predatory man that should be under the glare of the spotlight?

I believe that religious dogma has played a huge role in skewering our perceptions of sexual freedom and it has perpetuated prescribed notions of permissible and appropriate roles for the different sexes. The effect of which perhaps has led directly to this unholy truth… society celebrates and encourages the sexual freedom of men while at the same time denounces and discourages the very behaviour in women. This sexist practice at play here is clear evidence of the imbalance of this sexual double standard? Perceived or real acts of promiscuity in men solicit the following indulgent response, “Oh he’s just being a man, he’s sewing his seeds”. But for women the disparaging comment is always, “she’s a slut, a whore”. Men’s actions are glorified. Women’s actions are condemned. This is how the ‘slut-shaming’ machine does its work. It destroys the reputation of the woman and rationalizes the crime. The narrative of rape-culture is such that it lays blame and shame at the woman’s door for her perceived moral culpability and subtly and insidiously solicits empathy for and absolves the man from his responsibility for the crime. So the wheels of justice turn, and men will continue to run to the patronage of the courts… for there lies their protection.

And then unbelievably, we still have the audacity to question why women hesitate or don’t speak up immediately and disclose gender-based violence.

So, how do we start to change this imbalance? How do we unlearn this pattern of victimizing women? We begin with ourselves. We begin by unlearning this biased inherited default position, accepted by many still today… that women will always wear the brunt of the blame when the violent crime of rape happens. With rape and sexual abuse against women and children in our country at epidemic proportions, it is time to question our thoughts and perceptions about sexual freedom pertaining to women and men. We must ask ourselves, “Am I biased in the way I view sexual freedom and the way I voice it in my social interactions”? “Do I view sexual freedom as a right for men only and not women”? “Do I pass judgement, with the weapon of words, on women I perceive to be sexually free or promisicuous”? Words are powerful tools used both for inspiration and destruction. At the core of every written and spoken word, is a direct arrow of intention that knows how to make its mark. We need to be mindful of the intention of the words we speak and write. We must take responsibility for the effect of the words we put out on social media and in different private and public forums, because they have the power to build or destroy real people.

And then, we need to look at direct and indirect ways we are complicit with our silence. We are complicit when we do not speak out when a friend belittles his wife in our company. We are complicit when we are confronted with domestic violence and say nothing. We are complicit when we do not challenge a friend, colleague or stranger when they slut-shame women. We are complicit when we do not challenge the principal who solicits sexual favours, from the young woman seeking permission to complete her matric exams at his night school, in exchange for admission. Complicity protects and strengthens the behavior of the perpetrator and those who protect him. Our silence and fear of rocking the boat is no longer a plausible excuse or an option. The truth is, we each have been complicit with silence, in subtle and overt ways in enabling the status quo of abuse. But now is the time to speak up for the things that matter and speak out against the things that do us and others harm. We each must take responsibility and effect change by speaking up in our homes, our schools, our places of work and places of worship, in spite of how difficult and challenging it may be. It is time to face our fears. Time to be brave and kill complicity by speaking out against the wrongs being done to us and to others…and more importantly speaking up for those who do not have a voice.

I join so many others in being here for you Jenny. We support you every step of the way. I make this vow to you that I will no longer be complicit with silence. Sending you and all warrior women love and healing as we journey this difficult road together.

Aluta Contunia!

Bettina Schouw




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it is the season

2017-11-01 11:32:39 tinashouw

it is the season for addressing the roar
and redressing the raw of our woundedness
a time for reaching deep and looking within
it is the season of giving voice to the throttled silence
that generationally held us captive in immeasurable ways
for far too long
it is the season of painful revelations and honest conversations
finally a time for drawing lines in the sand
it is the season for listening… and hearing… and listening
for treading the long winding road to our healing
it is the season for unclenching fists
a time for turning palms to sky a time for opening hands
it is the season for reaching out across the chasm of our fractures
a time for holding… and holding on

it is the season of wild beating hearts
that speak the languages vulnerability and courage
as we stare into the eye of the unsettling storm of our reality
it is time…time to take back our power
time to own our right to choose
time to take back our bodies and minds
take back our homes and communal spaces
held hostage by crime, corruption and a petrified patriarchy

it is the season for walking the mountains and valleys of this fragmented land
clothed only in the stark beauty of our broken stories
a time for calling the spirits of our ancestors
to light our path and help us remember
help us embody the power of who we are
when we choose to stand together in truth and integrity
when we choose to stand up and stop
the violation and annihilation of our children, our women and our men
now is the season to protest against this protracted civil war
waged daily…night after brutal night
by the harsh disregard of merciless gangsters
malfeasant policeman and an indifferent self-aggrandizing state
against bone-weary forgotten and displaced communities
held hostage by fear and anarchy ruling the streets

it is the season of calling
it is calling you
come, come …come with your voices
bring your power and bring your rage
yes bring your rage…
but take the essential alchemy of reason and wisdom
and transform it into passionate action
that rebuilds… not vandalizes
that creates… not destroys
that communicates with fiery spirit for the common good
not stubbornly strong-arms an inflexible agenda
come bring your burning passion
transfigure this land into a new vision of who we can be
a vision that recognises and reveres the rights of everyone
and discards the division of race religion caste and creed
a vision that celebrates the gift of our differences
and proudly honours the magnificence of our heritage
and the treasury of who we are

and then… bring your ancestors
yes call them up…they will never let us walk alone
and as we walk into this season together
may we be held by the wings of divine spirit
whose light shimmers out of every eye
may peace, resilience and gratitude ground us
right here where we find ourselves now
finally here… in this season of seeing
with blinkers shattered on the ground
it is clear
we cannot unsee what we have seen
now is the time for being the change we seek
it is the season of new beginnings
it is time
it is time

Copyright Bettina Schouw Cape Town South Africa. 1 November 2017

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I accept the blessing

2016-02-10 13:34:38 tinashouw

I accept the blessing of this day

I accept the blessing of this day

every visitor come through my door

you are welcome and so much more

I accept the blessing of this day

be you a sadness a joy a despair

whatever mask it is you were

come inside sit down here

I am listening I am listening

I accept the blessing of this day

I accept the blessing of this day

every visitor come through my door

you are welcome and so much more

I accept the blessing of this day

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begin at the roots

2016-02-10 13:28:12 tinashouw

begin at the roots


a voice whispers


at the roots

I am climbing the tree of my life

beginning at the latticed web of its sap-rich roots

reaching for the tubular rivulets that soundlessly gargle their way




to that blessed unknown river


with bare hands and feet I pull myself up

testing adjusting my weight from limb to limb

my winged heart takes flight

catches in my throat

as gravity winks from down below

pausing in mid-ascension I gasp for air

but only find uncertainty there

crude anxieties roil and churn igniting and burning arteries

lava-blood fires deafening rounds of scalding fear


a voice whispers


I listen



I start again

climbing the root-face

aware of a still gaze silently watching me

tentacle-fingers search and fumble

then find and grab a gnarled and twisted root

tentative toes slide into the foothold of a crack

and grip like a rock-sucking-lichen

is this where the light shines in

eyes swim into the swallowing darkness

uneasy in the absence of light

there is nothing else to do but pause


give in to the flow

of the eye’s magic streaming of dark-adaptation

I let go

as the body’s secret knowing of how to calibrate

how to heal kicks in

with pupils open wide night vision reveals her secrets

I breathe again

grateful for the temporary respite

buoyant I float in this weight-bearing sea of darkness

a smile plays on my lips with the question

is this how we find our way


© Bettina Schouw ,Cape Town SA, 15 January 2016.

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Gratitude Journal- Day Five

2014-10-21 08:56:01 tinashouw

Saturday morning I drove to Oasis in Lansdowne road and arrived early with refuse bags filled with recyclables on my backseat. At the recycling depot I joined a queue of five cars waiting for the gates to open. Sitting in the comfortable silence of the car it occurred to me that we are lucky we have depots that sort out our disposables. I must confess though that there are days when recycling seems like an extra unnecessary chore that I could do without. But… when I find myself sliding down that slippery slope of grudge and ungratefulness, this sobering fact always serves as a reality check, “running away from life’s responsibilities has never served anyone’. We need to open our hearts wider to the realisation that for every action there is a reaction, which we are responsible for. Let today be the day, we get that day and night, shadow and light, joy and pain, autumn and spring, are sides of the same coin that coexist with the other. Once we accept this as a part of life. It becomes easier to just get on with it and do what needs to be done. So when you party, you clean up. Take responsibility and sort out your mess. Put the refuse into the bins. Be mindful about not being wasteful and recycle what can be reused. Cultivate a conscious and responsible mentality. I see recycling as paying it forward. Take care of the planet and she takes care of you. Its all about yin and yan. What goes around, comes around. The truth is, it’s all about the conscious life choices we make and added to this the attitude of gratitude. So what am I grateful for? I am grateful for the fact I live on this wild and wonderful planet with its array of fabulous beings and nature. I am grateful to all who choose to love and care for this planet, our only home, by honouring everything living on it, through responsible action and paying it forward with the way we live our lives. My gratitudes are many.

“Look again at that dot. That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it everyone and everything you love. Like it or not, for the moment the Earth is where we make our stand… Carl Sagan


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Gratitude Journal- Day Four

2014-10-20 13:46:54 tinashouw

Last Sunday I drove into the country side to visit a beloved. As I followed the winding road snaking though Dutoitskloof, the huge mountains swallowed me up. Luminous shades of greens, greys and browns swooped down from the mountainside washing my eyes with colour. The stark ragged outline of the escarpment cut deeply into the infinite stillness. And the azure sky looked on proudly from up high as though she was the creator of this exquisite scene. Lost in this surreal artwork I travelled the tarred road carved out by the heavy hearts and callused hands of men. I felt my heart swell with wonder, awestruck once again by the master sculptor who had created this range of beautiful giants. There is something about the majesty and magnificence of mountains that grabs one at the core. I felt both small and vulnerable and yet… another part of me blossomed boldly like the pink-faced proteas and danced with unrestraint like the silky silver-leaf trees in the breeze and I sensed a one-ness with all around me. Peacefulness buzzed gently inside me and a sense of belonging affirmed that I am in this mountain… and this world… just as it is in me. So just for today, I am grateful for eyes that see and ears that hear the muezzin call of the beloved, which draws us in again and again to experience the exquisite happiness of heart that comes with being held in the hearth of the mountain. Last but not least, I am thankful to all the nameless workers who built innumerable roads, through hills and valleys to gift us sacred passageway to our natural state of being.  My gratitudes are many.

“Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to the mountains is going home; that wilderness is a necessity…” ― John Muir

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Gratitude Journal - Day Three

2014-10-19 19:11:12 tinashouw

I am glad that the 19th of October is here, marking your birthday. Happy Birthday brother. Today I am walking through the house of memory. I recall your smile as the singular key that could unlock a certain door in my heart. I remember your awkward hugs… and yes, I still miss them. Your calls from Joburg, filled with a big brother’s love, pride and concern for his younger sister, always made my day. So today I celebrate you Lee. I am grateful that I got to have you as a soul-sibling for forty years and for our shared life-experience with it’s strange and unexpected twists and turns. I am grateful that we got to walk life’s road together for a while, and that I experienced your love and you… mine. Since you left, many brothers have come into my life and are always looking out for me… and you know what, I can’t help but feel your hand in all of this. So thank you. But mostly I am grateful that you are my brother and that still your spirit unwaveringly breathes inside and watches over me everyday. My gratitudes are many.

“To the outside world, we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters.

We know each other as we always were. We know each other’s hearts…”Clara Ortega

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Gratitude Journal - Day Two

2014-10-18 14:05:37 tinashouw

Right now I am in training as to how to manage my website and social media  tools more efficiently. I love this learning curve. I am grateful to my fabulous teacher, Gareth Campbell, the graphic designer, creator and implementer of my website, for teaching me to be more web-savvy. Checkout his work here.  I am thankful for work that comes in daily, which enables me to do what I love viz: teaching, performing and mentoring, writing and composing. To the community of creatives, and this circle is huge, who continue to inspire me daily through the sharing of your work, thank you for your continued dreaming through, song, dance, art, film and the written and spoken word.  You make this planet an awe-inspiring and magical place to live in. Being human, I am aware that sometimes I may feel alone, but the truth is I am never alone on this journey. I am grateful that there are always fellow travellers opening new doors, pointing impishly to the unknown delights of roads less travelled, igniting my passion with a delicious glint in their eyes and sparking in me imaginative and fresh ways of being present to everything. Each one of you help me see the world anew and teach me how to take life one step at a time . My gratitudes are many.

Thespian Peter Hayes says, “I am here” walking in the arrow of time…

and that in itself is something I am grateful for.


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Gratitude Journal - Day One

2014-10-17 10:29:50 tinashouw

Today is the start of my Gratitude Journal, thanks to Lorelle Bell for the nomination. I looked up the meaning of gratitude and the Oxford dictionary defines it as follows, “the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness; recognition and acknowledgement”. The etymology of the word points to goodwill, thankful pleasing and grace. Now that ‘grace’ part got me interested , so I looked up the definition of grace and one of its meanings was,“a divinely given blessing”. I like that. It warms my heart to the possibility that when we engage with gratitude we bless others and are divinely blessed in our actions. On reflection, I have come to realise that gratitude is a conscious choice. So what are the pros and cons of engaging or not engaging with gratitude? Well personal experience has taught me that when I engage with gratitude by expressing it through speaking or writing, my spirit feels lighter, happiness finds me and instantly I feel more open to others and experiences the world has to offer me. When  I do not engage with gratitude and consciously focus on the negative, heaviness stalks me, leaving me feeling shut down and closed off to everything that may come my way. The choice is ours to make… and I choose gratitude. Hmmm…what am I grateful for? I am grateful for the beautiful quote on gratitude below, written by the psychologist, writer and priest, Henry Nouwen. Last but not least I am grateful to every reader who I am able to touch through my writing and sharing. My gratitudes are many.

“The discipline of gratitude is the explicit effort to acknowledge that all I am and have, is given to me as a gift of love, a gift to be celebrated with joy. It is a divine gift, freely given to us so that we may offer thanks and share it with others.” – Henry Nouwen

Visit this site for more information about his work here.

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2014-02-07 14:04:58 tina-schouw
Listen listen don’t be afraid to listen
Listen listen don’t be afraid to listen
Quiet be still, be still be present
Open up your heart
To presence and listen
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MOTHER NATURE’S EYES (from the album Bleed)

2014-02-07 09:01:01 tina-schouw
I see a women walking down the street She walks with pride as she swiftly strides by I see a woman walking down the street She is the guide to places deep inside And nothing can hold her back No nothing can hold her back She’s strong, she is wise, She’s got Mother Nature’s eyes And written in the stars above, the heavens call her child of love She’s grace she is power, she’s the moment, she’s the hour And she sings hey na na na, hey na na na She’s s strong, she is wise, she’s got Mother Nature’s eyes Hey na na na, hey na na na She’s grace she is power, she’s the moment, she’s the hour
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the learning of darkness

2014-02-07 07:37:34 tina-schouw
the pale gold curtain filters a sliver of light then you spring to mind reading books to get lost in and get lost I did in tales of other peoples lives you gravitated to her bed, not yours as if her perfumed presence lingering in the unmade bed would heal you the learning of darkness 
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2014-02-07 07:32:33 tina-schouw
my heart is filled with a thousand stars that will not sleep tonight their song of praise ricochets against the black board of sky piercing holes through which the light shines showering crystal words that fall like holy water washing me cleansing me reminding me that i am i am incomparable
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and so we dance

2014-02-07 07:29:21 tina-schouw
and so we dance arms stretched high fingertips touching ceiling of sky calling up a tidal wave of smiles dispelling the tension in our worn out faces washing worry away and so we dance painting the walls with liquid laughter and the heady sweat of letting go psyches transformed like floating ribbons flashing purple red green and gold
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and when you find me… I dare greatly

2014-02-07 07:24:23 tina-schouw
i have moved my love to be where you are beyond the walls of what once I perceived as love’s limited reach deep inside the passageways of the maze of dreams i am the wistful path remaining echoing the faltering steps of uncertainty catching the soft curve of your sole’s inner-arch sniffing the elusive air for your scent’s trace going mad in the yearning for you
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THE BIRDBATH… Observing the call

2014-02-06 13:09:30 tina-schouw
Night has wept under the gaze of the tall plane tree and the roof of Adrian's garage, a natural pool is half-filled by this nocturnal shower. With eyes still closed I hear the splashing and frenetic flapping of wings. In an instant I am up and at the window, looking through the day’s frame, watching a picture unfold before me. Five little birds dip and dive into molten silver. Rapid-fire-flapping wing action shakes the dust and sleep from their feathers. Heads and beaks dive into and out of bodies cleaning, cleansing, preening and preparing for the new day. Busy little bodies perform ablutions with sacred solemnity in their private little Ganges under the watchful gaze of sun. Smiles scattered like confetti dot their faces. I am happy.
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